Insomnia

I haven't been able to sleep in a while.  I decided to start blogging because Im not sleeping.  I like to sleep.  But I go through periods where I cant.   I have depression, like so many people now do, and maybe its my meds...maybe its just my head but I just cant fall over that edge lately.  
I used to write on my Myspace account.  I'd just let go with my thoughts and rants and shit...but I dont visit Myspace much anymore so  I came to this and decided this is where Im going to go when I am tired but cant quite sleep.

Im 41, chubby, pretty, a mom...divorced but in a really good relationship and have a really good relationship with my ex husband.  He's probably one of my 3 best friends in the whole world.  He knows me better than I know myself mostly.  Ben, the man Im dating, is amazing.  He has taught me more about myself and who I am and how to love myself than anyone ever.  I'll write more on my odd romantic relationships at another time.  I mean, we're just getting to know each other.  I have a bunch of kids, 4 brothers, 1 who has passed away.  I live with my mom and my youngest son.  My dad passed away 4 years ago this month.  I miss him.  I was a daddy's girl and its been really hard with him gone.  So many things I wish could have been sd and done differently...but you'll read over and over through my journey here-I refuse to have regrets.  They are a waste of time and dont solve anything.
Mostly, I am happy.  I love my life and I have everything I need, if not everything I want.  LOL But that's ok.

Now...if I could only sleep.....